COLLECT YOUR FUCKIN MAIL! ! !

Things that break, you want to know. . .He'd like to know what mends. . .What mends the sun that breaks the dawn so that it may rise again? What mends a broken promise, trust or given words? Or is it even possible once the words are even heard? Will a break up mend a break down? Or the other way round?
Letting go of the pain, but memories stay on. A man sits in grief for the bundle of love just swayed off like a leaf. . .He struggles hard to heal, from a distance faith stares while strength seem to falter and he asks 'does God care?' letting go of the pain the mending heart still bleeds looking to the night sky. This man wants release as tears bathe his dark eyes. . . He knows not how to deal with empty feelings that plagues his heart and mind when he wakes each morning. .
~ He puts his pen at work ~ "Fuck it! I wanna get over you. I am only human. Fuck you and the bastard who rode you in. Fuck the lies that you made paper thin. Fuck you for the way you crushed my heart and told me it was nothing, fuck the part where you cried and said it was me and fuck me for thinking i could be the one that broke, the one that broke your heart. Fuck you for all your lies and for the start that you said it was no start but only me seeing something ugly that could never be and then for asking more than twice if i could let it be, it would be nice. Fuck you for saying he was only glass that sparkled in your eyes, a piece of ass when i no longer sparkled when i fell. Fuck you for sending me to hell and keeping me there. And that was where i found myself again and fuck you for saying when i found out i was broken,
'see? All the time it wasn't me!'
and fuck you for crying when i wanted out. Fuck you for begging me to give you hope. Fuck you for your narrow, shallow, selfish scope. Fuck you for never seeing me standing there in tears begging you to see, to see me standing there at all, alone and pushed so far i'd fall and when i fell, fuck you for that too! And fuck me, fuck us both, fuck you!"

~ ~ MERRY XMAS ~ ~